Full Moon practices for affirming and releasing

Tonight is the first Full Moon of 2015, the Full Moon in Cancer.

Similar to my New Moon practices, I have a routine for each Full Moon. I light a candle, get out my Full Moon journal and write a list of things I want to release to the Universe.

This Full Moon felt different though. My list ended up being affirmations to take me into my next cycle. That’s the thing about moon ceremonies, you make them what you need them to be. Go with the energy. Go with the flow of your intuition. Do what speaks to you.

Back in November, my husband and I decided to both write letters to our daughter Emme as part of our grieving process. Surprisingly, my husband finished his a few weeks ago. I asked him to place it in Emme’s box for safe keeping. I’ve been putting off writing my letter. I kept telling myself I wasn’t sure I needed to do it, but tonight, I felt the urge to.

As I wrote my letter, tears poured down my face. I wrote about everything Emme’s death taught us and how it brought us closer together. I thanked her for choosing us to be her parents even if she isn’t with us any more. I reminded my daughter that she is and will always be loved. I asked her to give her brother hugs and kisses, and then to send him on his way. ❤

As I wrote, I looked up at the TV and realized the song Unbreakable by Jamie Scott was playing. The album cover featured a large tree (similar to the one I always see in my meditations) with a rainbow going through it. Could this be a sign? I sure hope so. 

Tonight as we move out of the energy of the Full Moon in Cancer, I’d like to dedicate this song to every Mother out there who is missing her babies. We are all unbreakable. XO

Spirituality vs. Science: an on-going battle within an (in)fertile mind

Last night Two nights ago, I went to a Sacred Soul Circle. At this event, 8 women gathered for a soul healing session led by an ah-ma-zing facilitator (the same one who is doing my writing workshop).

During the session, the facilitator tunes into each person’s energy to give a guided meditation of what messages their soul desires to communicate. It’s basically a 3-hour meditation session. Although each person’s session is unique, the group shares in the experience. There were many synchronicities between my life and the other women’s. I could relate to each person’s experience in one way or another.

I won’t give all of the details of my session except for the part when my babies joined me. They appeared as I stood on the edge of a burning forest. They told me they would help heal my heart and place each one of their little hands over it. A big rain cloud appeared and extinguished the burning forest. My babies told me they will always be with me, but I need to continue living my life until they come.

In the end, my main theme from the session was: SURRENDER TO THE STORM.

My conscious side over analyzes this: Which storm? Past heartache? Family issues? The storm of infertility?

Right now, I don’t know what the answer is, but I do know that my biggest (in)fertility battle has been between spirituality and science.

My spiritual side tells me:

• We will have two children: a girl, then a boy
• They are waiting patiently for their time to come
• They are always with me
• My Aunt watches over them
• I need to continue living my life before they get here
• Perhaps there are more lessons for me to learn before they arrive?

Science tells me:

• I’m young enough
• My odds are decent
• Our timing is close to bang on (no pun intended)
• Our tests have all come back “fine” as the doctors would say
• Our case is unexplained
• I CAN conceive a baby … somehow with enough persistence and $$$

This struggle is what leaves me in despair. Do I trust science? Believe in the probability? Or am I content with believing we will conceive when we are meant to?

Why are we 1 of 8 couples who are faced with (in)fertility?

I don’t know. 

For a while now, I’ve tossed the idea of knowing back and forth in my head. Does it really matter if I find out WHY we haven’t been able to conceive yet – scientifically or spiritually? Shouldn’t it just matter that we DO conceive? 

I’ve decided to let it go.

I will trust in the process either which way it unfolds.The clarity of the message will come to me when it needs to.

Until then, I’ll keep picturing two tiny little hands imprinted onto my aching heart.

A natural approach to fertility + a GIVEAWAY!

From the start of our journey, I wanted to conceive naturally.

I have tried the following holistic approaches to balance my hormones, reduce stress and improve our chances of having a baby:

• Naturopathic medicine (various supplements and homeopathy)
• Acupuncture
• Reflexology
• Yoga
• Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT) a.k.a. “Tapping”
• Meditation
• Chiropractic treatments
• Massage
• Crystal healing
• Bodytalk sessions
• Reiki

It was not easy for me to transition from natural fertility cycles to the world of crazy drug-induced fertility treatments. I often believe more of what my natural practitioners tell me compared to the Western approach.  In my opinion, Western medicine often boxes you into a category (Unexplained) and doesn’t always take into account the entire mind, body and spirit.

This month, I’m limiting my extras to acupuncture, reflexology, crystal healing, reiki and meditation. I guess this list really doesn’t seem like I’m limiting much. Oh well… 🙂

I would love to go into detail about how each modality has impacted my life, but I know for most (in)fertiles it’s not reasonable to even attempt to try all of the above mentioned options. Many holistic treatments are NOT covered by your health insurance.

When people say “OMG infertility treatments must be costing you so much!”.

I always respond with, “You have no clue what I spent before I started the drugs”.

If you are looking for a cost-effective approach to fertility relaxation, I would highly recommend the Circle+Bloom IUI/IVF Mind-Body Program. It’s $59 US to download or you can use this referral code to receive 15% off your purchase: http://circlebloom.refr.cc/9F5V7Z8

I’ve been doing this meditation each night since we started fertility drugs in December. There are even specific meditations for the Trigger/Egg Retrieval and Insemination/Transfer days.This isn’t the first fertility meditation I’ve tried, but it’s definitely my favourite. It has significantly reduced my stress. The relaxation/visualization process they walk you through just works for me.

Circle+Bloom also offers programs for natural cycles, PCOS, FET, egg donation, pregnancy, delivery and for those wonderful partners in our lives.

We all know that referral codes often give something back to the referrer so…

I’ve decided that if enough people purchase the program using my referral code, I will use any referral $ dollars accumulated to giveaway a FREE Circle+Bloom Mind-body Program to one lucky (in)fertile or prego!!! 

I know this process may not happen overnight (I’d love to have 1000s of readers, but in all honestly I don’t). So, I’ll keep you posted and let you know how it goes.  When I am close to having enough $, I’ll post the details of how you can enter to win. 🙂

Hope this helps someone out there who needs it.