How can saying a name mean so much?

Yesterday, I got together with a good friend of mine for a soul art session. She is working towards her Soul Art Instructor certification. It was a lovely day filled with lots of insights and creative expression.

As we chatted, she stopped me and said, “Did you name your baby? You don’t have to refer to it as the loss around me. Refer to her by her name”.

I commonly say, “after our loss” or “after we lost the baby”.

I don’t often actually reference our daughter around people who refuse to acknowledge the fact that she died.

Am I protecting my heart or merely protecting theirs?

Deep down, I think it’s a combo of both. I don’t want to feel judged, nor is it comfortable to deal with awkward reactions from people.

Saying Emme’s name feels sacred. People don’t understand how I knew it was a girl or how connected I was to both of my children long before we conceived them. Sometimes it’s easier to not go there, than it is to try and explain…

Not everyone in my life can handle our pregnancy loss, but that’s their issue, not mine.

Being with my friend yesterday, reminded me of how fortunate I am to have friends who are so accepting and loving. I don’t know if my friend truly realizes how profound that moment was for me. I felt safe, comfortable and understood.

Most of all, I am so grateful that she is willing to say my daughter’s name with me. <3

I will continue to surround myself with my tribe – the people in my life who get me – because I deserve that honour and my daughter does too.

Saturday family time

Today,  we started priming the antique dresser we are painting blue for the nursery and we put together our crib!

Nothing makes me giggle more than enjoying the new human baby items with my fur-babies.

Here’s the chihuahuas on lockdown:

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I also convinced my husband to let me take them around the block in our Uppababy stroller with the bassinet on. 

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Don’t tell him I shared this one with you!  Hehehe :) 

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I’m currently 25 weeks, 2 days pregnant. I’m feeling a bit overwhelmed these days –  especially because I’m tired and can’t get as much done. It’s like I want more time to get things done, yet I also want time to hurry up so we can meet our little man.

It’s the days like today that bring me back to the present moment to enjoy where we are at right now. <3

Baby Buys: Part 3

Whew. Crossing this one off the list was a HUGE relief.

The car seat.

Essential, yet when it came down to making a decision, I felt so stuck!

Since we purchased the 2015 UppaBaby Vista, our car seat compatibility options were:

  • Graco Classic Connect Snugride
  • Chicco Keyfit and KeyFit 30
  • Maxi-Cosi Mico and Mico NXT
  • Peg Perego Primo Viaggio and Primo Viaggio SIP

I know in the US there are many more options including the Uppababy Mesa, but we are more limited in Canada.

The quality of Graco models varies greatly. We like the weight of them, but found they didn’t offer much padding for support. The Maxi-Cosi is super light-weight, but we felt the handle was awkward to adjust and the canopy sucked. We also didn’t like how wobbley it felt on the stroller with the available adapters.  The Peg Perego is the Cadillac of car seats, but it was beyond our budget.

In the end, we chose the Chicco Keyfit 30 in Techna which is on sale at Babies R Us for $219.97 (regular price $289.99).

I ordered it online this morning and paid only $2.93 in shipping due to a 10 off shipping promo. $2.93 is worth me not having to drive down to the store and deal with sales people. :)

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We chose the Chicco Keyfit for the following reasons:

  • It fits babies from 4-30 lbs or 30” long
  • It was highly rated as #2 on Lucie’s List and received an A in the Baby Bargain’s book
  • It was highly recommended by two IVF friends of mine
  • Although it’s not the lightest car seat out there, it’s packed with many ease-of-use and safety features
  • It was on sale!
  • The Uppababy adapter was easy to find

I ordered the Uppababy stroller adapter from The Safety Superstore.  I had never heard of this store before, but they have a storefront location in Oakville, Ontario. The car seat adapter was only $52.95 (with free shipping) when it’s comparably $75 at other baby stores. (And yes, I triple checked to make sure it was the 2015 model).

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Now, we are set: baby has wheels and baby can ride in vehicles.

Stay tuned for nursery updates! We are assembling the crib tomorrow!

Baby Buys: Part 2

This post covers the bigger, much needed items we’ve recently purchased for baby including a bassinet, stroller, bath tub, baby monitor and diaper bag.

1. Halo Bassinest Swivel Sleeper – Premier Series in Classic Damask

When I first heard of this bassinet, I thought it was another ridiculously priced baby item that you wouldn’t get much use out of. After visiting my sister and seeing it in action with my nephew, I was sold.

Our bedroom is not very wide. We need a bassinet over a play yard if we are to keep baby in our room for the first few months.  Our bed is also fairly high off the ground. The Halo bassinet adjusts to accommodate the height of your bed; and swivels for easy access in and out of bed. This allows for little to no bending if you end up being a c-section Momma. I also like how it’s see through for visible sight lines to baby. I initially thought the stand would be floppy, but it’s actually quite substantial and heavy.

The Premier series also comes with the following electronic features (batteries required): a night light, 3 soothing sounds, 3 lullabies, a nursing timer, 3 levels of vibration – all with 30 minute auto shut off.

They say the bassinet is good for up to 5 months old or a maximum weight of 30 lbs. My sister just switched my nephew to his crib and he’s 4 months old – nowhere close to the weight limit though.

At most stores in Canada, this bassinet model will run you $299.99 plus $18.99 for a fitted sheet. The model without the electronic features is $239.99. We got ours in excellent used condition for $200 including the crib sheet. If we factor in the taxes (10% in our province), we saved over $150 by purchasing it used. SCORE!

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2. 2015 Uppababy Vista in Georgie (Marine Blue/Carbon)

Our stroller is by far our biggest splurge. We narrowed down the options by reading online reviews, then actually going into the stores and pushing the strollers around.

We had an excellent Sales Associate who thoroughly went through all the features with us multiple times. Yes, that means I went into the store and looked at the strollers MANY times before we took the plurge and swiped our card. We made sure we knew how to use everything and understood why the features were worth it before making our final decision.

Both my husband and I agreed the Uppababy Vista just felt “the best” to us. I know lots of people rav about the City Select, but in comparison, it felt clunkier. We liked the 2nd seat option of the Uppababy, but since we don’t know what our future plans are for growing our family, a second seat wasn’t a 100% required feature. We LOVED the colour choices of the Uppababy and all of the accessories it comes with for no added cost: the bassinet, bassinet bug shield, bassinet storage bag, toddler seat rain shield, toddler seat bug shield, and the bumper bar.

The best part about the Vista was how easy it is to change seat positions and fold the stroller up. Not only that, it’s one of the few strollers on the market capable of standing up on it’s own when folded. The true weight of this model is 27.5 lbs, but neither one of us have had difficulty manoeuvring it. It has one of the best SPF sunshades and includes an extra large basket that holds up to 30 lbs (or in my case – 2 chihuahuas and a diaper bag). A large basket was a MUST HAVE for us and surprisingly, so many strollers have tiny baskets.

At first, I felt a bit silly about buying a stroller that comes with another bassinet. I do hope to use the Uppababy bassinet in our family room for nap time when it’s not being used on the stroller.

The catch with the Uppababy is that some colours are more expensive than others. The pricing generally ranges from $924-964. We purchased this stroller at a local speciality baby store for $964 – a full-priced splurge, but well worth it in our minds.

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3. Boon Naked Collapsible Baby Bath Tub – in Purple

This was one of our first baby purchases. We got it when I was only 7 weeks pregnant.

Our godson has one and his parent’s love it. I like how it collapses for easy storage. I plan to hang it on the wall or the back of the bathroom door when it’s not in use. It’s also eco-friendly – BpA-free, Phthalate-free and PVC-free.

I’ve heard some mixed reviews about the simplicity of using this with a newborn. Some suggestions include using a foam insert at the bottom until baby is a bit bigger. We will see how it works out for us.

I have seen this bath tub go for $69-79 regular price. I found ours at Marshall’s for $35. It was a discontinued colour, but who cares! For that price, I’ll take it.

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4. Philips Avent – SCD570/10 Dect Baby Monitor

This purchase was a bit more impulsive. I had done a bit of research into monitors, but really didn’t know which way I would go. I found this model on sale on and decided to take the plunge.

This is an audio-only monitor. In the age of technology, it may seem odd that I chose to NOT go with a video monitor. I’ve read lots of mixed reviews on the quality of the video monitors. Being a huge tech geek I knew if I went video, I’d want high quality, but I did not want to spend the money on this luxury.

We live in a 4-level split home. There’s only a handful of steps between the main floor and our bedrooms. I don’t ever think I will be that far from our child. Our basement level (4 levels down) is closer than most people’s 2nd story.

I chose this monitor because it’s the top rated audio monitor on the market. It’s features include:

  • DECT technology that guarantees zero interferance with other transmitting electronics
  • High quality, crystal clear sound
  • A temperature sensor to monitor the climate in baby’s room
  • A night light and lullabies
  • Talk-back ability
  • A range of up to 330 metres

Full-priced, this monitor sells for $199 at most specialist baby stores; although, I did find it on amazon.ca for $161.  I got mineon sale for 30% off from West Coast Kids which totalled $146.99 with taxes and shipping included.

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6. Timi & Leslie 7-piece Diaper Bag Set in Ocean Blue 

I tend to be a Matt & Nat kinda gal. I wanted a diaper bag that is versatile and looks more like a purse. When I found this diaper bag, I was IN LOVE! <3

This particular style can be worn cross-body or over the shoulder with adjustable, detachable straps. It comes with a changing pad, a zippered waterproof sac for soiled clothes, a clutch that can be used as a wallet or a small purse, an insulated bottle tote, and matching stroller straps.

My husband bought it for me as a gift for my upcoming birthday.  We purchased this item without seeing it in real life. I had never even heard of the brand before. Once it arrived, I was even more impressed! The quality and size is exactly what I wanted.

I found the bag online at Chapters listed at a regular price of $180. We got it sale on for $40 off plus an extra 20% off putting the final cost at $140.80 after taxes ($128 before taxes). A mighty-fine birthday present if I do say so myself!

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To me, an investment in high quality items that have great reviews is totally worth it if you can fit it into your budget. I’m confident that many of our big ticket items – especially the bassinet and the stroller – will retain decent resale value.

Don’t forget to refer back to Baby Buys: Part 1, the items we purchased before we conceived: a high chair, play yard, swing, bouncy chair, and changing pad.

And stay tuned for Baby Buys: Part 3… the nursery!

24 week bumpdate

How Far Along: 24 weeks and 4 days

Meds: All taken daily – prenatal vitamin, Omega 3 + DHA, Vitamin D, Ranitidine (2x/day), Magnesium (250g at bedtime as per my chiro’s recommendation), Gaviscon for heartburn as required.

Baby is the size of: an eggplant

Best Moments This Week: 

  • Way more baby kicks! Sometimes, he refuses to go back to sleep for a while after I’ve gotten up to pee early in the morning.
  • Seeing my baby bump actually move due to a kick
  • Buying our crib, room accessories and some clothes

Total Weight Gain: 8 lbs total. Didn’t weigh myself this week. 

Maternity Clothes: Ugh. We are due for a super hot summer. I bought 2 new dresses at Motherhood maternity this weekend (including the one in my photo below). All I want to wear is breathable material – no jeans! I also find if I wear my Bella band, it smooths out the B and gives me a bit of added support.

Symptoms:

  • Heartburn and acid reflux
  • Sore lower back and hips from sitting in the car for 10 hours this weekend
  • Hungry and tired – I’m not sure if it’s the heat or just pregnancy, but I’m so tired again.
  • That rash is coming back again :(

Sleep: Some nights good, some nights bad. Depends on the # of pees and my acid reflux.

Food Cravings: Blueberry bagels, green grapes, blueberries, ice cream

Anything making you queasy or sick: Same as last week – Brushing my teeth still, eating too much, taking too much in my mouth, meat –  plus bending over as it triggers my acid reflux.

Movement: A LOT MORE! Super exciting. Although, jumping on my bladder is really getting old now.

Stretch Marks: Yes on my lower tummy

Baby Bump: Growing and growing…

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Gender: BOY

Labour Signs: Too early.

Belly Button In or Out?: Innie.

Wedding Rings on or off?: Off due to the heat. I’ve noticed a bit of swelling in my hands, but my feet seem ok.

Happy or Moody?: Happy, yet tired.

Purchases for baby: We bought an Ikea crib and a few accessories to organize the room (will write more about that later!). Also picked up quite a few onesies and sleepers from Carter’s on sale for an extra 20% off the last marked sale price. SCORE!

Purchases for Momma: A maxi dress, a skirt and a short summery dress from Motherhood Maternity

Miss Anything?: Bending over without a struggle, eating full meals

Looking forward to: Putting together the crib this weekend