The pukefest continues…

Remember how I said I was feeling better? That didn’t last long.

Thursday, I had a bad day. Didn’t puke a lot but felt nauseous all day. I ran out of my Zofran prescription on Friday and lasted all day Saturday before major puking episodes started again. Saturday, I only puked once. Yesterday afternoon, I couldn’t keep anything down after lunch. Today, I ended up calling in sick as I puked probably 10X before noon.

I called my favourite receptionist TWICE today. She said that she had left a note on the OB’s desk last week, but that he was really behind on them. She said she would mark it as URGENT and move it to the top of the pile. I called back end of day and she said there was nothing she could do until she spoke to him after the day’s appointments were done. Clearly, this woman has NEVER been prego sick and is STILL working on that office assertiveness that she is lacking. I got a bit short with her today. I told her I would have came in for an appointment last week, but she told me this could be handled over the phone. Then I said, if I don’t get my prescription filled today, I’ll be calling for an appointment tomorrow and most likely a doctor’s note for missing more time off work.  😦

The fantastic news is: since I’ve stopped Zofran, I’ve had regular poops!!!! That being said, I’ll take marbles out of my ass if it means my head isn’t hung over the toilet all day long. 🙂

I have some Diclectin left. I may pop a few tomorrow, but I really didn’t enjoy the zombie fog that comes along with it.

On Saturday, I was feeling optimistic that I could make it without any anti-nausea medicine. After today, I know I need to do what I need to do to get my work done. We are in the planning phases of a big project at work and I can’t take much time off right now (plus I’m most likely travelling again next week).

I get so frustrated when I get sick, but I keep telling myself life must want me to slow down for the sake of this baby. :/ I’m trying here… but a break that lasts longer than 24 hours would be really nice.

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Sweet, sweet relief!

I woke up this morning with NO NAUSEA!

I have a new friend. His name is Zofran.

When I told my OB that Diclectin wasn’t working, he said, “No messing around. I’m giving you the good stuff“.

So far, I’ve only taken one pill before bed. My OB said I could take up to 3 pills a day. I’m going to try to play with my dosage to get myself on the least amount with the most amount of relief.

It’s crazy how much prego nausea/sickness affects you. Most mornings, I dreaded getting out of bed as that’s when the nausea would hit. I’d struggle to get ready for work, attempt to eat something without puking (which recently was a daily fail) and prepare my package of anti-nausea remedies to battle through the day (soda crackers, ginger ale, preggie pops). I carried a puke bucket with me – especially in the vehicle. Nausea was controlling my life.

This morning, I feel like myself. I ate breakfast without up-chucking it. I have a clear mind. I’m ready for the day.

My one piece of advice to other soon-to-be Momma’s experiencing horrible nausea: Don’t attempt to fight it! Allow yourself the relief. Growing a baby is hard work. When you feel constantly nauseous (because let’s get real – who really only has MORNING sickness?), it’s a major bummer. I was super grumpy. My social life has been majorly lacking. My husband was getting annoyed with my constant sickness. Take back your life and take the damn pill!

The rest of our OB appointment went well. I’m convinced my little one does not like ultrasounds. He did a major flip and curled into a ball when he first tried to scan me. Due to a shitty office layout, I missed seeing the whole thing, but my husband excitedly relayed what he saw to me. The doctor wasn’t concerned with last week’s bleed. I got my requisition to complete the blood portion of the NT testing and hopefully my anatomy scan will be scheduled soon. Yes, the new receptionist is doing a better job now. Kindness and patience paid off.

Tomorrow I’m 13 weeks. It’s hard to believe the first trimester is almost over. ❤

12 week bumpdate

How Far Along: 12 weeks and 4 days

Meds: All taken daily – Prenatal, Omega + DHA, Vitamin D 2000mg, Vitamin B12, Probiotic, Diclectin (4 pills daily)

Baby is the size of: an apricot or a plum

Best Moment This Week: Seeing our baby bounce on the screen during our 12 week ultrasound

Total Weight Gain: +5 lbs

Maternity Clothes: Still in between sizes. I’ve been living in sweat pants, leggings and maxi skirts.

Symptoms:  NAUSEA! Ughhhhhhhhh. I’m hope that I’m in that transitional “worse before it gets better” phase because the past 4 days have been horrible. I struggled with puking all day Friday, Saturday and Sunday. I wasn’t able to keep anything down yesterday. Easter supper does not taste as good coming back up as it did going down. I manage the nausea better if I eat more frequent, yet smaller meals. Driving = especially in my husband’s truck – does me in. I’ve started carrying a puke bowl with me.

The persistent sickness has made me not so worried about my bleed from Thursday night. I am still going to try to get in to see my OB before my scheduled appointment on Thursday if possible.

My rant of the week would be non-prego/non-infertile advice about pregnancy nausea. I really don’t want to hear “did you try this or this?” from people who have never experienced it. I also don’t like people telling me “oh well it will all be worth it in the end“. I get that. I know it will all be worth it, but it’s hard not to be grumpy when you can barely stomach soda crackers. /endrant

That being said: I welcome all advice from anyone who has experienced this before me! Rumour has it, you can increase your Diclectin dosage with Doctor permission? Is this true?

Sleep: I have more energy since stopping my progesterone. I can still sleep for 10-12 hours a night though. Still having the crazy dreams. I’ve also been using the Snoogle pillow consistently this week.

Food Cravings: Strawberries, pumpkin pie, plain chips, ice water, Mini Wheats,

Anything making you queasy or sick:  Chicken, vegetables, brushing my teeth, driving,

Movement: Too early.

Stretch Marks: Nothing new.

Baby Bump: Still barely there but continuously getting harder.  

Gender Prediction: BOY!

Labour Signs: Too early.

Belly Button In or Out?: Innie to start!

Wedding Rings on or off?: On.

Happy or Moody?: Moody. Being sick does not equal a happy Lindsey.

Purchases for baby: Nothing this week.

Miss Anything?: Enjoying a meal, cuddling (as the Snoogle gets in the way)

Looking forward to: My doctor’s appointment on Thursday and whenever this dreaded nausea subsides!

11 week bumpdate

How Far Along: 11 weeks and 4 days

Meds: All taken daily – Prenatal, Omega + DHA, Vitamin D 2000mg, Vitamin B12, Probiotic, Diclectin (4 pills daily)

NO MORE HORMONES! I finished by PIO, Prometrium and Estrace last week. It feels like I cut my pill intake in half.

Baby is the size of: a brussel sprout or a fig

Best Moment This Week: Receiving our copy of You are the Mother of All Mothers with our Angel baby’s name on the tribute page ❤
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Total Weight Gain: +5 lbs

Maternity Clothes: Today I’ve got a maxi skirt and a longer maternity tank top on. Still in between sizes.

Symptoms:  The sore boobs and nausea remain consistent. I have to take the full dose of Diclectin to curb the nausea and even then, I still puke. I seem to have a bit more energy during the day which I’m attributing to the lack of additional progesterone.

Sleep: Still having crazy dreams. Trying to get a nap in over lunch hour. Struggling to make it past 9pm most nights. Found having a 2 hour nap on the weekends allows me to stay up later.

Food Cravings: Carbs, bread…

Anything making you queasy or sick:  Meat – especially chicken – and vegetables. I’ve puked the past couple of times I attempted to eat chicken and veggies.

Movement: Too early.

Stretch Marks: Nothing new.

Baby Bump: Barely there but continuously getting harder. I’ve got the B bump going on (which thanks to Mr. Google I learned is an actual thing for us curvy Mommas). I typically have a double roll tummy, but the baby bloat is making it protrude much more than usual. I’m hoping as baby grows it will even out a bit. Ignore the wavy hair and no make-up… it’s Monday and I work from home… 🙂  

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Gender Prediction: BOY!

Labour Signs: Too early.

Belly Button In or Out?: Innie to start!

Wedding Rings on or off?: On.

Happy or Moody?: Moody.. and occasionally HANGRY.

Purchases for baby: I ordered a rainbow baby maternity t-shirt and onesie. They arrived this week. I also got a very thoughtful gift from my fertility coach. She sent a yoga book for me and this super cute book for Baby – baby’s 1st official gift. 🙂

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Miss Anything?: HOT baths, vegetables, dream-less nights, not having random hot flashes

Looking forward to: Our 12 week ultrasound on Thursday! I’m so pumped to see how much the gummy bear has grown.

Recognizing when fear creeps back in

My business trip went well this week. The Diclectin kicked in and I thought, “Gee, I’m really starting to feel better! I should reduce my dosage…

Well, let’s just say, I don’t recommend reducing your Diclectin dosage UNLESS you are prepared for the nausea/dry heaving/puking to return. 😦

I battled through yesterday, but am happy to say I did not puke on my flight home.

I will admit that the subsiding symptoms (whether drug induced or not) were bringing up my fearful Momma vibes. My boobs were less sore, my nausea was gone… was my baby ok?

The return of the dreaded nausea has confirmed that everything is more than likely on track, but I’m feeling like I need a confidence boost.

My 12 week nuchal translucency ultrasound is scheduled for next Thursday, April 2nd (cue the WHOHOO!).

In the meantime, I’ve decided to register for Molly Nichol‘s upcoming FREE online workshop: How to Prepare Yourself for Pregnancy after Infertility.

During this event, Molly will explain how you can reduce the amount of fear and anxiety you experience once you become pregnant after infertility.

I may be a Courageous Momma growing her rainbow baby, but I know I don’t have all the answers. I hope to learn a thing or two from Molly’s upcoming session and tame that fear once again.

Baby’s first trip & a few other milestones

We’ve reached/are reaching a few milestones this week.

1. I’m done my PIO ass shots! I swear when you first start out this day seems like it will never come. Once you get to the end of the road, it becomes so routine that each poke barely phases you.  Either way,  I’m so grateful to be done. 

2. Baby is joining Momma on his first plane ride! I’m off to my head office for a business trip this week.  I’ve taken my Diclectin and bought a bottle of Ginger Ale.  My goal is to make it through the day (at least until 4pm), eat supper and go to bed at some obscenely early time.

3. During this trip,  I plan on telling my boss and my team about my pregnancy. I’m almost 11 weeks which may seem early to some, but I probably won’t be back in town for another month. I’d rather be honest now as we are about to embark on a major project.  I’d prefer if my boss is aware of when I’ll be available, so I can help plan my contribution upon until my leave.

That’s it for now! Wish me luck! I’m not sure how I will make it through the day without a nap. 🙂

10 week bumpdate

How Far Along: 10 weeks and 4 days

Meds: All taken daily – Prenatal, Omega + DHA, Vitamin D 2000mg, Vitamin B12, Probiotic, Estrace 400 mg, Prometrium 200mg, PIO 1ml, Diclectin (3 pills daily)

The countdown is on: tonight is my FINAL ass shot!  I’ll continue my Estrace and Prometrium for another 3 days .

Baby is the size of: a kumquat or a date

Best Moment This Week: No more puking + first orgasm since before transfer. Yes, we held out for a LONG time. I’m happy to say I had no scares following the magical moment.

Total Weight Gain: Haven’t weighed myself this week.

Maternity Clothes: Last week, I used my Bella Band Basic with my regular jeans undone. It worked really well! Except on the 2nd day, I found the band was trying to roll up a bit. Just takes a bit of adjusting each time you stand up from sitting. Other than that, I’m still wearing regular clothes. I did purchase 2 maternity dresses for summer and a cute “Due in October” tank top.

Symptoms: Same as last week: Tired, sore nipples (the boob soreness has subsided a bit), NAUSEA! Last week was by far, my worst week for nausea. After not being able to keep anything down Wed-Thursday, I caved and got a prescription for Diclectin. I’m flying out for a business trip tomorrow and I did not want to be puking the entire time I am away. Let’s just say Diclectin and I are now friends. It totally eases my nausea until it’s almost time to take another pill, then I get the dry heaves again. I’ve been taking 1 pill in the morning, at noon and at bedtime.

Sleep: I’ve been sleeping INSANE amounts! The Diclectin really turned me into a zombie the first 24 hours I was on it. I slept for over 12 hours the first night and had a few naps the next day. Since then, the drowsiness is wearing off. I’ve also been having INSANE dreams. Do these continue the whole pregnancy?

Food Cravings: Cherry danishes, cheese croissants… still on the carb kick.

Anything making you queasy or sick:  Brushing my teeth, chicken, smell of urine in a public bathroom

Movement: Too early.

Stretch Marks: Nothing new.

Baby Bump: Barely there but continuously getting harder.

Gender Prediction: BOY!

Labour Signs: Too early.

Belly Button In or Out?: Innie to start!

Wedding Rings on or off?: On.

Happy or Moody?: Diclectin zombie = moody

Purchases for baby: Nothing – surprise again!

Miss Anything?: Having energy. vegetables.

Looking forward to: Our 12 week ultrasound… date STILL to be determined.