Triggers.
Just when you think you are in a happy place…
that your emotions are under control…
that infertility doesn’t have a hold on you right now…
It happens.
“Best brother ever” written on a toddler’s t-shirt.
An innocent gesture meant to celebrate their joy.
My nephew is about to become a big brother. My SIL is due in July with Baby #2. They conceived on a trip to Barbados. It was their first month trying again. Because for fertiles, it’s THAT easy.
I have my joy. I have my miracle boy.
But…
Will Wyatt ever get to be a big brother?
I don’t know what the road ahead looks like. I don’t even when I’ll be ready to entertain which route to take.
My wounded heart longs to (one day) give him a sibling, but opening myself back up to the trials and tribulations of infertility is fucking frightening.
Awaiting Autumn 
Sending you so much love my friend. These announcements are so hard, both as we remember what it’s taken to bring our children into our lives and as we think about our futures. I’m sorry you have to experience this, but know your response to this is exactly like mine. You are not alone.
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Thank you ❤
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I totally understand what you are going through. We have opened up for baby #2 and after seeing a second line the other day, followed by blank test after blank test, I feel like I’ve fallen right back into the way I did when we were trying to conceive Luke. It’s heart breaking when so many people are able to conceive easily and here you are moving from month to month seemingly not any closer to another baby. It will happen for you when you’re ready.
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Yes, I’m nowhere close to ready. Wyatt is still so young but I know when the time comes we are opening ourselves up to all those emotions again
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It’s seriously the worst. Cause we have our miracle but those announcements still punch is right in the gut. It’s awful. Hugs honey.
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Your little miracle is adorable 🙂
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It’s so hard. I haven’t even gotten my first period yet but I did buy a ertility monitor the other day to have “just in case.” I hate hoping.
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I noticed they were on sale at Costco online. I sold ours when we decided to do IVF.
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I have it hidden away so it’s not staring at me all the time, mocking me.
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This just happened to me yesterday. SIL is due days shy of my 3rd Angel Baby’s EDD. It stings.
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