I am a POAS addict. Some months, I keep it together and only test 1-2 times. Other months, curiosity gets the best of me.
I’m currently injecting 15 units of HCG each morning. I know this means that my home pregnancy tests (HPT) will have at least a faint positive. I want to see how it progresses.
Initially this morning, it took a little while for the line to appear. BUT, I was convinced it wasn’t going to appear. I sulked back to my bed, mad at myself for letting my curiosity get the best of me. I stayed in bed for 45 minutes. I was scared to go back in the bathroom and see the result. The test was still faintly positive, but slightly darker than 2 days ago.
Here are the results from testing 2dp5dt and 4dp5dt:
Now I get why the clinics recommend not POAS-ing. It’s a complete mind-fuck. As of right now, I’ve told myself I will wait until 8dp5dt (Saturday) to test again.
To keep my mind off whether or not I’m pregnant, I’ve created a list of things to do before my Beta:
- Finish unpacking
- Organize my sock drawer (long overdue!)
- Continue watching Mad Men on Netflix
- Have a Netflix movie marathon on the weekend
- Meditate
- Play with my animals
- Go to the Farmer’s Market
- Start Christmas shopping online
- Browse Pinterest (this can waste hours!)
- Stay engaged at work (translation: STAY OFF GOOGLE!)
- Avoid Facebook (no joke – since our IVF cycle started, we’ve had 7 pregnancy announcements)
- Call my bestie
- Research baby gear (This is a double-edged sword. So fun, yet also builds the anticipation)
- Make a Fall wreath to hang on the front door (Pinterest inspired obviously)
- Make a wreath to give to my MIL for Christmas
- Plan some date nights for my husband and I (as inspired by Ever Upward)
- Back-up the photos on my cell phone
- Clean off my old laptop
- Research how to replace front step (I’ve told my husband this NEEDS to be done once I’m prego)
- Update my fertility expenses spreadsheet
- Submit my acupuncture claims
- Write a daily blog post
- And most of all… JUST BE!
I don’t expect to get everything on this list done. I plan to use it to distract myself if I sense a case of the baby-crazies coming on. Most importantly, I plan to honour myself and my body. If I’m tired, I’ll take a nap. If I need a night alone, I’ll stay home. Right now, I want to stay in a healthy, happy mindset.
Tonight, I’m letting my husband hide the HPTs. He can give them to me one at a time when we both decide it’s ok to test.
8 days til Beta ❤
Do you have any other ideas to pass the time?
Awaiting Autumn 
Did you ask the nurse if the HCG builds in your system? Good luck keeping busy 🙂 Christmas shopping sounds like a good plan! I taught myself to crochet via YouTube during my last 2ww.
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No… I figured if I asked it would be a definite give away that I was POAS-ing. Haha
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You just reminded me I have a quilt I can finish!
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Sounds like a good plan to me! Even if you don’t get anything done, you can keep making lists to stay busy!
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Good point! Haha I had an idea for another one alreasy: home reno ideas. Can’t afford them due to IVF but that doesn’t mean the list can’t exist.
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I absolutely love the start online Christmas shopping! I love being done shopping early and completely avoiding malls and stores in December (I don’t like shopping at the best of time, let alone around Christmas).
I also love that you husband is hiding the HPT’s! I think we may have to consider doing that in our house.
But, most importantly, I adore how you are taking care of yourself, and putting your health first.
Best wishes making it through the next 8 days without driving yourself absolutely mad, and I’ll be hoping for you! 🙂
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I bought my nephew’s gift online yesterday. 🙂 I also am an early gift shopper. I’ve had part of my niece’s since July.
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When we were in the states last week we bought Christmas and birthday presents for our two nephews. It’s nice to have something removed from the gift list! And, as an added bonus, we wont feel so broke in December and January by spreading out the shopping. 🙂
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I agree. Spreading it out definitely helps the cash flow.
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You’ve got this!! That’s a lot of stuff on your list!! Show us that wreath when you’re done with it!!
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I’ve got to decide which one to make! My husband is farming this weekend and I’ll be alone. Figured it would be an easy Saturday project.
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You lucky in the mainland you have all the craft stores! Over here we have to improvise! We have only 1 store and its super overpriced so I gotta resort to goodwill a lot..
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I love thrift stores! We don’t have Hobby Lobby in Canada though. That would be nice.
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we dont either… we have a small Ben Franklin…
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We have a store called Michael’s. Although sometimes Walmart, Target or the Dollar Store will have craft sections.
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No michaels or dollar stores here either (love those!) We got target and walmart, but their craft sections are tiny! The walmarts here are not as extensive as in the mainland USA
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Uh, that’s an ambitious list! I would just lay around & watch television or google random sh*t. Good for you! XOXO
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You know that’s probably what I’ll end up doing. Hahaha
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I am a poas fool :). As well as a non pregnant fool. Lol!! Hehe! I actually hve a Monday funnies blog post about what to do during the tww but you will have to wait until Monday :). No worries…they are silly and pointless ones :).
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Ah man! Perfect timing! Should give me a few ideas for the last couple of days.
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They are pretty comical 🙂 hehe
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I always find lists helpful, it is super satisfying to check things off! Christmas shopping is a great one! AND how great is Pinterest? I could spend hours on there! In the early days of TTC I would POAS, but I was always disappointed, so I stopped. Every time I think about POAS I think about how I will feel if it is negative. If the answer is sad or disappointed then I don’t bother. The waiting is tough though, sending you positive vibes!
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Geez you got a lot of stuff to do
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It’s a COULD DO not a have to do list 🙂
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Unfortunately I think IVF only increases the insanity of TTC and POAS addiction. I’m weak so I would be testing daily, not a help I know but that’s what I would do. Hiding the HPTs is a good idea. Hope he does a good job. I’m feeling confident you’ll be preggers for real real soon.
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Oh I hope so. Yeah I think testing daily would at least let you see a progression.
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I might have to steal a few ideas from your list!
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Go for it! I already got started on the wreaths tonight… Well finding stuff to make them anyway.
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I intend on copying most of list when its my turn!
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Hope it helps. 🙂
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I have that same problem. Good luck with waiting until Saturday….sounds like you’ve got a nice list of stuff to keep you busy!! LOL, I have things I need my husband to accomplish now that I’m pregnant too, one of which includes him getting running boards on his truck….because I don’t think I’ll be able to heave myself up in there for too much longer. Praying for a positive beta for you!! 🙂 🙂
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I feel you! We have them on our truck but lots of our friends don’t.
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That’s a pretty long list! I am going to say the same as some others have – I may steal a few items from your list for mine! Great idea to keep your mind on other things and keep that pesky POAS addiction under control 😉
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