I still frequently go to acupuncture. My acupuncturist is an amazing woman who has helped me on so many levels beyond just fertility.
Today at my appointment, I told her that I’ve just been exhausted lately. I attributed it to staying up past midnight for a week straight, being the Mom of a one year old, running my own business, the change in seasons and you know, the full moon.
She asked if there was a possibility I could be pregnant.
I told her there was a chance – isn’t there always when you aren’t using birth control? – but it was like a 0.01% chance.
My gut said not pregnant.
Well…
Curiosity always gets the best of me.
I dug around in the bathroom cupboard and found an ultra sensitive pregnancy test. You know one of ones from my ectopic days that literally detect anything. It was even expired.
I peed on it anyway.
Do you get where this is going?
I ain’t no magical unicorn. I’m just a regular (in)fertile woman who can’t resist the urge to POAS.
I still don’t have my period one year postpartum due to breastfeeding. I clearly need to get to bed earlier and listen to my gut.
Whomp. Whomp. Whomp.
Hi single red line! I didn’t miss you, you little bitch.
I so wish you were a magical unicorn! I so do not miss those tests!!!
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I thought for sure I has given them all away… And there that little sucker was!
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Ugh the worst!!! I have been exhausted and emotional (very unlike me) the last few days. I told a friend a lunch today and she tried to convince me to take a test. I refuse telling her I have POAS more times than I can count and the heartache is too much. Hugs
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Yup, I couldn’t resist either when my period was a week late recently! Who am I trying to kid??
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I do not miss poas. Not one bit. ❤️
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All temptation is gone. No more pee sticks equals no more testing
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Ugh the joys of infertility
Hope you and your LO are doing well though!
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Sorry that’s disappointing, hope you hadn’t gotten your hopes up too much.
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So many hugs.
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Hi,this is totally unrelated to the post ,but i just wanted to say hw much i relate to you . I had an ectopic before a successful 6th attempt at ivf got me my baby girl who is now 10 months old . I still remember when i was in the dr’s clinic going in for my 6 th attempt (with no hopes) i had read your post which mentioned you were around 2-3 months pregnant . And i had immediately closed the mail . It was too painful to know of anyone getting pregnant be it in any part of the world during those days . And i apologise for that 🙂 and so our babies are around 3 months apart and whenever i want to know wat my daughter wd be doing in the next fewmonths i check your posts.
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Oh Deepti! Thank you for reaching out. I can completely relate. I know many other bloggers and friends who gave birth around the time we would have had our first baby as well. Those moments will always be in your mind. I am so happy to hear you were blessed with a baby girl. I hope she brings you are much joy as our son does for us. ❤
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