Remembering our Emme

Today is my daughter’s due date: May 24, 2015.

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We lost her on October 7, 2014 due to an ectopic pregnancy.

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I’m now 19.5 weeks pregnant with our rainbow, but that doesn’t mean that Emme isn’t on my mind.

This weekend was all about my own self-care:

  • I mediated and ate breakfast outside on my deck
  • I had a reiki treatment
  • I spent time outside enjoying the beautiful weather with the close friends and family who showed us unconditional support on our journey
  • I went for a manicure and pedicure
  • I finished planting my flowers and dedicated a piece of the garden to my Angel
  • I participated in a webinar with Zahra Haji to share my story of infertility, pregnancy loss and the journey into motherhood

I am in a much better mindset than I ever thought I would be today. During the months immediately following our loss, I couldn’t even fathom making it to this date, let alone being able to hold it together. Over the past 7 months, I’ve spent many hours looking deep inside myself to find strength, comfort and support.

I don’t look at our loss with despair. Today is not a day to mourn, but a day to celebrate that our daughter forever changed our lives. She will always remain in my heart.

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17 thoughts on “Remembering our Emme

  1. I was thinking of you yesterday as I read through your blog posts. I’m going through my own beta hell and your blog posts were so comforting – made me feel less alone and less like a crazy person. You’ve been through so much and yet remained so calm, strong and grounded. It gives me hope. I wish you a very healthy and happy rest of your pregnancy with your rainbow baby and as you commemorate your angel baby.xx

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  2. Pingback: Remembering our Emme – 1 year later | Awaiting Autumn

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