Pregnancy symptoms mean so much to you after you have endured infertility treatments and pregnancy loss. Every twitch, ache, stomach flip, hot flash and wave of exhaustion validates that your body is growing a baby. This morning, I had my first major nausea episode. I was getting ready for work when it came on. I dry heaved over the toilet and the sink, but didn’t actually throw up. I’ve been feeling fine since then.
My friend Alicia from ladylovenandbabydust recommended the Ovia Pregnancy and Pregnancy+ apps. I’ve been following them daily for updates. Right now, my baby’s spleen is starting to appear. Absolutely Fascinating!
I’m 6 weeks, 4 days today. Each time I see that number increase, I feel some relief. There’s 9 days til our first official ultrasound. Although we got a sneak peak in the OB’s office last week, we didn’t ask to hear a heartbeat. I will feel much better after our next appointment.
With my hormonal irritability and my anxiousness for our next scan, I haven’t been as centered the past couple of days. There’s a few lingering family/friend issues that are bothering me. I’m going to sit down tonight to do a mediation exercise that my fertility coach sent me called, “Releasing Energetic Ties that Bind”. I have some forgiveness and releasing work to do. I want to get back to a place where I’m 100% focused on my husband, myself and our baby.
As much as I want to fast-forward into the 2nd trimester, I keep reminding myself to appreciate this time. Even though there is some uncertainty, there is much joy and happiness.
Awaiting Autumn 
My favorite part of the Ovia app is the baby’s handprint! It’s so cool watching it get bigger.
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I’ll have to keep an eye on that one!
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Me too! I showed it to hubby the other day and he was like, look how small it is! (12weeks)
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Here I am thinking wow those hands look huge! I click and it says check back in week 8 when the hands have developed. Bahaha makes sense now!
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Ha ha, yeah the hand it shows for you now is probably the size of a newborn, because once the baby develops hands the picture shows a hand within a hand to show you the size it is now, compared to the size of a newborn. My husband has this little hand made of metal on his keychain that is the hand of a 1lb baby born prematurely. It was from a fundraiser for the local childrens hospital and to raise awareness for premature babies. It is amazingly small, and it is a tangible thing you can touch and feel. Very cool idea on the part of the hospital.
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Ah I love that! Such a great idea.
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I love your perspective of living in the moment and focusing on joy and happiness whenever you can. I think it’s the only way forward in pregnancy after loss.
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Very true. Joy and happiness does help combat fear.
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Nausea is a good thing… it should mean that things are moving along nicely! I seriously can’t believe just wrote that- you can slap me next time you see me!
Here I am at 37 weeks, still barfing and fighting the urge to daily
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I was thinking of you this morning when I was nauseous. I remembered that time when we had lunch and you couldn’t even get a few bites in. I’m relieved to say I’ve been fine the rest of the day, but I’ve got no appetite.
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I downloaded the What To Expect App, and am not really liking it much. Thanks for the recommendation on the Ovia one. Having experienced pregnancy loss too, I’m a bit anxious (plus my underlying anxiety disorder!) as well. I just keep reminding myself that everything about this pregnancy is different so far. It gives me hope. Nausea is a good sign too! Lol. PS- I love being a few weeks behind you, as I feel so connected to your posts! I’ll be thinking of you and sending positive vibes for a great ultrasound in 9 days!
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Yes the differences between pregnancies make a big impact on your emotional state. It’s also great to have cycle buddies. I did find it a bit hard after our last loss to still see how those women were progressing, but no matter what we can always use the inspiration and support. Sending lots of positive vibes your way. Has the spotting subsided at all?
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Nope. Still faint traces of it. I also have some mild cramps. I’m hoping it’s just the embryo expanding his/her residence.
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I had the faintest bit of spotting two Fridays ago after an acupuncture appointment. I’ve had lots of mild cramping on and off. The cramping always freaks me out but I keep telling myself it’s just baby and uterus growing and expanding.
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Interesting. I haven’t had any cramping at all so far, and was wondering when it would start. I feel so reassured that it’s normal.
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Hang in there. I’m hoping so much that your little one is just getting super comfortable. Your betas were much higher than mine. That has to be a good sign.
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Thanks. I hope we’re in this til the end together 🙂
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I don’t know if you’ve figure it out, but I’m originally from Ontario. I’d love to do a baby meet up next year when I come back to visit my family. 🙂
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Yes Burlington right? I’m about 20 minutes away! That would be amazing!
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Yeah my bestie is still in Burlington, my bro in Barrie and my parents in London. I’ve got lots of family in Oakville and Toronto though.
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Sounds like you’ve got lots of reasons to visit Ontario!
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Although challenging… ENJOY the symptoms!!! The nausea is a great thing!! I’m in 2nd trimester hell and I feel completely normal!! It drives me crazy!! haha.
The Ovia app is awesome. That is the one I use also. I love the different stages and how you can track pretty much everything. Also the food list that says what is a no-no and what’s okay.
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Oh great! I’ll have to double check that food list. I guess the only symptom of a normal second trimester would be the growing bump eh?
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I wish!!! Apparently the bump appears slowly – especially with the first child!! I’m still looking for mine beneath my fat rolls!! I can’t wait until you start taking pics of your bump!!!
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Yes honestly that’s all I look like now – extra pudgy. My one roll is starting to get hard though.
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love your perspective! my nausea started around this time too and it was such a relief to feel symptoms. you’re doing great…one day at a time! xoxo
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Thanks so much for the support!
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I had no idea that there were apps like that!! Try not to wish yourself through everything though…even though there may be some unpleasant stuff, try to enjoy your pregnancy! 🙂
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I am! I most definitely am. One day at a time letting the excitement trickle in.
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Sorry for the nausea, yes I know it’s good…but it still sucks. I hope yours doesn’t get too bad. If it does persist, try using SeaBands (for motion sickness). I found them to be helpful in relieving a lot of the yuckiness. Also, if you like or can tolerate ginger, that supposed to work (for some). Ginger cookies (I’ve got a great recipe), tea, etc.
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Yes luckily I bought some seabands during my fresh IVF cycle. I also can most definitely do Ginger. Would love the cookie recipe! awaitingautumn14@gmail.com
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I got this recipe form Simply Recipes’ website. I’ve done many of her recipes, very delish (and easy).
http://www.simplyrecipes.com/recipes/giant_ginger_cookies/
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Ohhhhhhh thank you! I’ll have to try it out.
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I’m glad your liking those apps and having lots of comforting pregnancy symptoms. As much as morning sickness sucks it is a huge reminder that YOU PREGNANT! I can’t wait for your next scan too, when is it?
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March 4, almost one week away. No nausea today though. Just yesterday.
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I have one tomorrow but our following is March 5th! I’m cheating by seeing my OB and RE lol
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If I could, I totally would too!
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