“I want every woman out there going through infertility to know that I remember. I know how strong you are and what you’re going through. I hope you are surrounded by love and support as you fight for your BFP or “big fat positive.” Until then, let’s continue to lean on each other.” – Bobbie Thomas from Bobbie Thomas on pregnancy after IVF
Those words stuck in my head.
As someone who has faced infertility and pregnancy loss, I will always remember the BFNs (big fat NEGATIVES), pills, injections, surgeries, tears, grief and sorrow.
You don’t ever forget what you have been through.
You may lessen the depth of your feelings associated with the struggle of your journey. You may even completely let go of those feelings, but you never forget.
It becomes a part of your story – your journey to now.
My mantra for this FET cycle is: One day at a time.
I’ve been feeling quiet, yet centred lately. I’m grounded and going with the flow of my current FET routine (Three pills in the am, two pills in the pm, healthy eats, lots of sleep, pending ultrasound and blood work Monday next week…)
You do what you gotta do.
But, you also remember.
The hardest part of our fresh IVF cycle was the 2WW and beta limbo.
My biggest goal for this FET cycle is to make it through the 2WW without (or with minimal) anxiety. Going through the meds and the transfer seems like second nature now. It’s the waiting that builds the anticipation and fear.
This time, I’m recognizing where I lacked support or self-care during previous cycles to ensure I feel supported and well-cared for in this cycle.
During any fertility treatment cycle, you need to surround yourself with love and support as YOU define love and support.
Know who you can lean on.
Don’t be afraid to ask when you need help or set boundaries when you need space.
Recognize when your mind is entering crazy territory and know how to bring yourself back.
Find peace amid the chaos; find calm within the storm.
Remember who you are and how far you have come.
Sending much love & light to all of my other cycle buddies, recently prego infertility sisters, new Mommas, and especially those who are patiently waiting for the next phase of their journey to begin. XO