I want to let you all know that I’m alive and well. Returning to work drained a lot out of me. This weekend, I got some rest and relaxation, and spent some much need time with my husband. I’ll update you all on my progress later on. But for now, I want to leave you with this poem I stumbled upon.
Just For Today
Just for today, I will try to live through the next 24 hours…not expecting to get over my child’s death, but learning to live with it… one day at a time.
Just for today, I’ll remember my child’s life, not her death, and bask in the comfort of the treasured days and moments we shared.
Just for today, I will forgive all the family and friends who didn’t help or comfort me the way I needed them to. They truly did not know how.
Just for today, I will reach out to comfort a relative or friend of my child. For they are hurting too, and perhaps we can help each other.
Just for today, I will free myself from my self-inflicted burden of guilt. For deep in my heart, I know if there was anything in this world I could have done to save my child from death, I would have done it.
Just for today, I will honor my child’s memory by doing something with another child, be it my own, or someone else’s, because I know that would make my child proud.
Just for today, I will offer my hand in friendship to other bereaved parents, fo I DO know how they feel.
Just for today, I will smile… no matter how much I hurt on the inside… for maybe if I smile a little, my heart will soften and I will begin to heal.
Just for today, I will allow myself to be happy and enjoy myself, for I know I am not deserting my child by moving on.
Just for today, I will accept that I did NOT die when my child did. My life did go on and I am the ONLY one who can make that life worthwhile again.
~ by V.Tushingham, taken from the Bereaved Parents of the USA Tampa Bay Newsletter, Sept 2001. Found on http://www.myforeverchild.com/