Ectopic emergency

I know quite a few of you have been wondering where I am. I didn’t post my usual beta testing day update.

Yesterday,  my beta rose to 1022. I found this out while waiting in the ER to be diagnosed as left tubal rupture due to ectopic pregnancy.

I joked with the ER doc that it only took them 5 hours to diagnose what I told them when I walked in the door.

Suddenly at 4pm yesterday,  I started experiencing sharp burning pains in my lower abdomen. Let me just say if your tube ever bursts it is NOT comparable to period cramps.

My husband rushed me to the ER. After an hour in radiology,  followed by a OB/Gyn consult,  they determined that my scans showed evidence of a ruptured tube with blood in the abdomen. Surprisingly,  I barely had any blood coming out vaginally.

Because my vitals were stable (and you know the OB had to deliver 3 babies first),  I didn’t get in for emergency laparoscopy surgery until 1:30 am.

Surgery was complete and I was out of recovery by 3:30 am.

I’m still in the hospital tonight. Unfortunately, the surgeon did not come in today to update me on the outcome of the surgery. I won’t be discharged until he does. I’m looking forward to finding out what I have left (does that sound bad?) and why the surgery took much longer than he had originally estimated.

My RE and one of the nice nurses from my fertility clinic have been in continuous contact with us. 

I’m doing alright emotionally. I had enough people ask me how far along I was last night which sucked knowing that it was never going to go any further. Although, it was comforting to see the sympathetic look in their eyes when they discovered it was my 1st pregnancy. The nurse who took me into the OR cried with me as we went in.

Right now,  I’m just in physical discomfort more than anything. I had a wild and crazy adventure on morphine last night. I’ve just been taking half doses today to limit the side effects.

So, this the end of my first pregnancy –  an ectopic tubal rupture at 7 weeks, 1 day.

Good-bye my Angel. Momma loves you. Xo

78 thoughts on “Ectopic emergency

  1. I am so sorry to hear how this all turned out for you. It is heartbreaking. Sending wishes for a good recovery and that you find some peace and healing.


  2. I’m so so sorry. I had my ectopic surgery on April 21st of this year. It was my first pregnancy and it was brutal. I’m so sad that other people have to go through this too. I hope you recover soon, both physically and emotionally.


  3. Oh my heart hurts reading this. I can’t imagine how you’re feeling right now. How very sweet that they were understanding and especially the nurse who cried WITH you on the way into the OR… so sweet and it’s just what is needed during moments “like these”… to truly not feel like just another patient or just another surgery to them.

    I’m so sorry for your loss. For your struggle through journey and your first pregnancy. BUT is it wrong to be so grateful that you were still able to get pregnant? I know this probably isn’t the time or the right thing to say, but I’m so glad that you got to experience the feeling of a BFP and enjoy that moment.

    Next BFP? You’ll dominate for sure. You’ll rock it and you’re going to be an amazing momma. So proud of you honey. But hurting for you and praying for you for sure.


  4. I’m so sorry. You have been through so much. I can only pray for you that you will be okay sooner than later. Never give up. You are/were a mommy and you will be a mommy again xo


  5. I’m so very sorry. It sounds like a hellish night and morning and emotionally, I just can’t even begin to understand how much it hurts. Hang on to hope and love. You are in my prayers.


  6. Fuck. We got pregnant around the same time. I was excited for you. I thought: there goes a gal who will make it. I hope that first sound odd, I think you know what I mean? Anyway, I wanted your pregnancy to be the real deal. I was hoping you would move past all this, that you could get to level two and coast for a bit. Because we all deserve that! This IF bs is the pits!

    So I just want you to know: I was genuinely, heartfelt sad to read this. I had thought this would’ve been it for you. Which I totally understand is NOTHING compared to how you must have felt. I wanted this to be your take home baby. I’m so sorry this happened. I hope both tubes are intact? And I hope that you have the time and space to grieve for this loss.

    I’ll be rooting for a fast recovery. All my love and hugs….


  7. I am so sorry this pregnancy ended as an ectopic. It is comforting to know so many cared about and for you during your hospital visit. It doesn’t make it better, but it does make it more bearable. *hugs*


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