I just got the email from my nurse (yes, she emailed instead of calling. I think I may have scared her with my “I did my beta. I have no hope. I’ll be waiting for your call” email this morning). I wish she had called instead though.
Today’s beta is 53.
She asked me to repeat it on Monday.
I HATE BETA LIMBO.
My thoughts:
- If the HCG booster had accumulated enough to be around 20, then my beta MIGHT have doubled.
- The lack of symptoms is still discouraging. Boobs are ever so slightly sore. Cramps come and go. I am trusting what some of you have said about perhaps my body has adjusted to the progesterone and the lack of artificial HCG. If this is a viable pregnancy and the symptoms stay like this, I definitely won’t be complaining.
- I need to Google the shit out of this AGAIN
My husband is frustrated. I’m frustrated.
I hope this little bean is just taking her sweet time, but I also need to be realistic.
THANK YOU SO MUCH to all of you who have been there for me from the start, from the middle and from recently onwards.
Your prayers, love, light, advice – it’s all appreciated. 🙂
I am so sorry to hear about the Beta limbo. I was hoping you were going to post double. I am praying that she snuggles in and stays put.
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Oh, I’m so very sorry the results weren’t more definitive. I’ll keep you in my thoughts, I know it will be a very long weekend.
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I’m so sorry for the beta limbo. I really want this to be your cycle and i’m still hopeful. Enjoy the weekend (as much as you can) and let that little bean know that it’s okay to double it’s HCG and to not be shy!! xo
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Oh gosh, I’m so sorry you’re still in beta hell! I have no words but just (virtual) hugs ❤
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I am so sorry you are stuck waiting and wondering. Try to relax when you can and be nice to yourselves.
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Praying for a miracle!!
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Praying for you and your bean
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Oh dear. This isn’t bad news though!! There’s still hope. Praying for you and little bean!! xo
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Oh hon. I’m so sorry you’re in beta limbo. Praying for a super high beta on Monday!
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Sending you positive and sticky vibes!
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Hang in there sweets ❤ XOXO
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I’m so sorry that you still have to be in this limbo. I am sending light and love and hugs your way! ❤
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I’m so sorry the results aren’t more definite. I’m hoping you get a much higher beta on Monday!
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Effing beta limbo! Ughhhhh. But it went up! That is good news. That is very good news. Like you said, factoring in the hcg booster it might have doubled. I am praying and hoping for good results on Monday.
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Sooooo Type A, I just made a spreadsheet to validate my hypothesis. It’s not quite double but all we can do is hope.
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This totally sucks. I hope that third beta goes up a lot. I am so sorry it is not more definitive. Thinking of you and sending the biggest hug. ❤
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Numbers increasing is a good sign at least. Symptoms might have just been meds and they have worn off so it might take a couple weeks to feel anything.
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Ugh. I’m sorry they didn’t call you with results like that. That’s also disappointing. (((hugs)))
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The limbo is the worst part. The questionable rise is also the worst. And all that after your first IVF. First BFP. Worst, worst, worst. I’ve been there, sister. I feel your pain, and I’m so so sorry. The highest of highs, only to be followed by worry and doubt. I hope you get good news.
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I lost all my symptoms at 12dp3dt and thought I was out. Keep some hope and try to stay positive.
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Thank you for that. I appreciate it.
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That is so frustrating. I am hoping you get answers soon.
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waaaahhhhh, i was really hoping for a definitive rise, but i like your thought on the low-dose HCG throwing things off. try to relax this weekend – i know, easier said than done
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Yeah one thing I realized was that the half life would accumulate. I tried a rough calculation. Still doesn’t look great but hey its something
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Hang in there, girl. ❤
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What a frustrating situation. It’s disappointing the clinic was not more sensitive in delivering the results. Prayers for strength and clarity for you.
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Beta limbo sucks the fat one.
My clinic does everything by email… We haven’t spoken to anyone since the transfer. Nothing like friendly personal service.
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I heard from mine via phone on Wednesday. I don’t mind email but you can sense more from the tone of their voice.
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I’m so sorry you’re still in limbo. That just sucks and must be so frustrating!! Sending prayers that the next beta gives you some answers!
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So sorry for the beta limbo :/. Ugh!! Praying for you and believing for miracles. Xo
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Big hugs! Beta limbo is the worst! Still hoping for the best for you and a sticky bean!!!
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This isn’t the result you were hoping to get. I’m sorry. I hope this weekend isn’t the longest ever and I hope you get some more affirming news on Monday. Take care of yourselves x
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Keeping you close in my thoughts right now. I’m hoping the next beta gives a much clearer venue of what’s happening. I think the protocol of giving you a booster daily really could have skewed the beta so this next one should help level that out. Beta hell is the worst! xO
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I hate the waiting. Holding out so much hope for you lovely xx
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Praying for you! My best advice, not that you need it, but I’ve been through this several times and I’ve tried everything from having hope to being realistic, to thinking I was protecting my heart. I know it’s hard, but right now you are pregnant and there is nothing you can do about those betas so just try to give your baby your best. Have hope because there IS still hope. I’m so sorry you’re in beta limbo. That’s such an emotionally draining place to be. Sending you so much love. Hugs.
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Thank you. That advice was beautiful. All we can do is be strong and hope.
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You’ve been on my mind all night/morning. I want to say that I’ve never had an email beta result. I would ask specifically that they call you on Monday, NOT email you the result. They may do this for everyone but you are paying a lot of money and I would exercise my right to ask for compassionate care.
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Good point. They have emailed frequently but I have never received a beta via email either. I’ll ask her to call Monday, especially because I have questions to ask.
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Hi lind! The cramping is scary at first cuz no one tells us to expect it for some reason… But after a while it was my reminder that i was pregnant. I know how you feel… Im in bedrest for the next 10 days due to spotting and cramping a lot… We’ll both get through this! When is your next beta?
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Oh Dani! I hope everything goes fine for you. Ours is Monday.
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Thx lindsay, i hope the same for you!
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Ugh this is not what I wanted to hear from you! I can’t tell you how much I want to read that you have good news. You have been through enough. I still think that things can work out though. Its not over until its over.
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Sorry, that’s poo!
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I am so sorry that you are in beta hell – I know very much all the fear and uncertainty and I am hoping you get good news with beta #3.
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I know it would be nice to have symptoms, but our last IVF that resulted in Paxlet, I had no symptoms what-so-ever!!! Even though I was on progesterone suppositories.
Fingers crossed for some great news on Monday.
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