We are sitting in the Victoria International Airport. I agreed to fly out early to please my husband even though we could have left last night and gotten home at 1am. Instead we woke up at 4 am and will be getting home at 1:30pm (yes, our second flight is already delayed).
I slept like crap last night which seems to be a pattern over this past week. There’s so much going on.
The lab called yesterday to let us know we have 2 embryos frozen.
I’m a bit surprised at how low this number is since they pulled out 27 and initially fertilized 13. No matter what, we still get another chance (for baby #2).
I’ve been watching Mad Men on Netflix lately. In one episode, the main character Don Draper says something about how fear lies in anticipation.
Wow. He nailed it.
The whole IVF process is a series of steps. As we approach each milestone, we fear the what ifs as we anticipate moving forward towards our goal of baby.
It’s 10 days til my Beta.
I keep placing my hand on my belly. I keep talking to my baby as if she is in there getting comfortable for her 9 month stay.
I can’t guarantee that this will be the outcome, but I’d rather live in love than fear.
Speaking of love, here’s my cuddley fur babies the night before we left:
Momma’s coming home!
Awaiting Autumn 
It sounds like you’ve had an incredibly positive experience for cycle one and I sincerely hope this is your last! Try not to worry too much about the freezing bit – with our egg donor’s eggs of the 8 (out of 12 that were collected) that made it to day 3, they anticipated only 2 to make it to 5 day blasto, or at least to the quality they like. Something like only 1 in 3 of day 3s make it to blasto in their clinic. We were very lucky with ours beating the odds, but if my clinic weren’t expecting it from even donor eggs, then I’d say your results are lovely and normal! Wishing you all the luck and stickiness in the world, AA. I hope the next 10 days fly-by (ha! Yeah, right). And enjoy your furry reunion!! XX
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Thanks for the info. It’s reassuring to know our numbers are normal. 🙂
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What a beautiful post!! I agree completely, it’s much better to live in love than in fear. I hope you have safe flights, I know you’re excited to get home and see your babies and sleep in your own bed. I hope you get a good nights sleep tonight! When do you go back to work?
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Going back to work tomorrow. My boss offered me some extra time off, but I think I’d rather go in and get my mind off the upcoming Beta.
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I hear that. Too much time isn’t always a good thing! Good luck keeping busy for the next 9 days. 🙂 ❤
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Hang in there. Praying for good news for you!
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Much appreciated! Thanks 🙂
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have a quick and safe trip home! fingers crossed!!
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Thanks 🙂
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I also went from 13 fertilised to one onboard and two 5 day snow babies …. By the sounds of the stats a couple of blasts in the freezer is an awesome result …best of luck with your 2WW and PUPO xx
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Thank you for sharing your numbers with me. Makes me realize we aren’t that uncommon.
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Sounds like your in a really good head space LOVE. Nothing like it. It’s better to have your positive outlook than not in an IVF cycle I feel. Negativity does no good. I can’t wait…10 days!
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I can’t wait too! I also hope you find a similar sense of positivity for your IVF cycle.
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Live in love and not fear! ❤ praying for a sticky! Xoxo
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Your prayers are much appreciated 🙂
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Sweetheart I am almost old enough to be your mama. Our RI told me last weekend I could expect one out of every 13 embryos to be normal (and presumably make it to blast). Three should cover your wish for one of each. 😉
In my experience with ART fear is my faithful companion – every day, every hour – and I just had to befriend her. I don’t remember if you were following me then but I have written about befriending my fear. I could not agree more with your comments about fear and anticipation. I am sending hopeful and peaceful wishes your way.
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I will go back and read that post of yours. Thanks for mentioning it. 🙂 And come on… you are hardly old enough to be my mother. How about older, wiser sister?
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My point was that I would be over the moon if I had 3 very high quality blasts from a single IVF cycle. 😉
I am so hopeful for you. Of course so is half the IF universe and most importantly you and your upbeat attitude have this covered. Can’t wait for your next good news. Are you going to wait for beta?
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Probably not. But I’m in a low dose of HCG so it will make more sense to wait for Beta. I might test at like 8-9dp5dt. My Beta isn’t until 12dp5dt
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Safe travels! Your fur babies are adorable!
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Thank you. If you follow me on Instagram, my feed is pretty much dominated with photos of them.
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AURGH! I hate delayed flights! BUT … I hope it gives you some time to get something pretty/sparkly/expensive/smelly/tasty from duty free 😍 there’s got to be treat to be had to kill the hours! I’m sure your furry beasts will be over the moon to get you home to fuss over them! Enjoy ☺️
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There’s no duty free when you fly domestic, but it was a great idea! Thanks for the support.
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Say what?! That’s rubbish! Oh well … Online shopping while you sofa surf it is then 😘
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I love that you’re calling your embie a ‘she’. I hope she snuggles in well and you’ll be sharing joyous news with us later this month. Enjoy the snuggles from your fur babies!
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Thanks! 🙂
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Live in love and not fear. This is beautiful. I feel like I live in fear a lot, and am afraid of getting hopeful for fear of being let down. I think this is very brave of you to let yourself love and keep an open heart. I am going to try and do the same 🙂 Have a safe flight home!
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It’s not easy to live in love and not fear. After many failed cycles, it seems like the best thing to do for my health and sanity. We can only stay strong on this journey. One step at a time…
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Yes, love wins! Good for you for sending fear packing. Buh-bye. I hope the next ten days zoom by for you. Fingers crossed!
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I hope they fly by too! Thanks for the support.
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Hope you made it home safe and sound hon. Thinking about you and thinking lots of positive thoughts 🙂 Try not to worry too much about the remaining embryos right now. It sounds like they froze the very best, and hopefully you won’t need them for a long time because you have sticky little one making a comfy home and settling in there right now!
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I spoke with the lab today and feel better now about the numbers. I’m praying this one sticks and the rest will be used for baby #2.
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Praying for that too! Glad you feel better after talking to the lab. Everything is crossed for you!
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