We are sitting in the Victoria International Airport. I agreed to fly out early to please my husband even though we could have left last night and gotten home at 1am. Instead we woke up at 4 am and will be getting home at 1:30pm (yes, our second flight is already delayed).
I slept like crap last night which seems to be a pattern over this past week. There’s so much going on.
The lab called yesterday to let us know we have 2 embryos frozen.
I’m a bit surprised at how low this number is since they pulled out 27 and initially fertilized 13. No matter what, we still get another chance (for baby #2).
I’ve been watching Mad Men on Netflix lately. In one episode, the main character Don Draper says something about how fear lies in anticipation.
Wow. He nailed it.
The whole IVF process is a series of steps. As we approach each milestone, we fear the what ifs as we anticipate moving forward towards our goal of baby.
It’s 10 days til my Beta.
I keep placing my hand on my belly. I keep talking to my baby as if she is in there getting comfortable for her 9 month stay.
I can’t guarantee that this will be the outcome, but I’d rather live in love than fear.
Speaking of love, here’s my cuddley fur babies the night before we left:
Momma’s coming home!