I’ve been meditating and journalling this weekend to uncover some of my fear around our upcoming IVF cycle.
Fear = Failure
Success = Moving Forward
This evening, I listened to a meditation by Yoga Goddess founder Zahra Haji. In this meditation, Zahra has you visualize the feelings within your heart and then release them to Mother Earth. Zahra explains that releasing feelings that no longer serve your good fertilizes the soil of your body and soul. Your tears are needed to cultivate and replenish the soil. This image resonates strongly with me. No matter what journey you are on, each aspect of life follows a cycle of birth, death and rebirth. To replenish yourself, you need to release the pain and be reborn as a stronger person.
Each fertility challenge is a lesson. Ultimately, you can’t move forward without facing the fear, the pain and the grief. Feel it, make space for it, and allow it to let go. Then, give your heart (and yourself) comfort and love.
Through my word cloud exercise I realized that to be successful, I need to move forward NO MATTER WHAT THE OUTCOME.
Wow. That concept is huge.
I’m not planning for failure. I’m going into my IVF with an open heart and mind. No matter what happens, I will pick myself up and step forward. Personal growth is too fascinating to stay in the shadows of despair.