The baby waiting game

Meriam-Webster defines wait as:

wait \ verb \ˈwāt\

: to stay in a place until an expected event happens, until someone arrives, until it is your turn to do something, etc.

: to not do something until something else happens

: to remain in a state in which you expect or hope that something will happen soon

12 months? 14 Months? 24 Months? How about my whole frickin’ life!!!

Waiting.

For.

My.

Baby.

Tomorrow, we have our first appointment with the fertility specialist. It’s been 4.5 months of waiting to get in.

Patience is a virtue. I feel as if I’ve perfected it, but really the waiting game isn’t about perfecting anything except the ability to let go.

Let go of the:

  • Stupid people asking stupid questions
  • Symptom checking
  • Pressure
  • Schedule
  • Hurt
  • Why me?
  • Disappointment and tears every time your period arrives

And instead, look forward to the:

  • Positive test
  • Excitement
  • Belly
  • Baby room decorating
  • Birth planning
  • Anticipation
  • First look
  • First touch
  • First cry

Look forward to spending the rest of your life loving your child, this individual soul who chose you and whose tiny body was conceived from love.

Look forward to the future. It will happen. And I am looking forward to when it does. *sigh* 

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